sien

dear just called me. we just arranged bout tomolo
i talk to him happily...coz im going to meet him lu
my happy days is coming..
then he told me 3rd Feb, they all got rehearsal.
so i meet him 4 mayb 2 o 3 days...

tat time he told me he 5th Feb only start work
so i thought at least i can b wif him 4 4 days
i didnt had good time last few days
so i thought at least i can hv 4 happy days

but looks like now...only 2 o 3 days...
when he told him he starts work on 3rd Feb
my voice straight away change, i start to like answer him
oh..yahor...ic....good lo....

he summore say good lo, u 6th only start coll
then u can rest, i had enough resting
i want some happy things happen...
not scolding from parents..
not nagging from papa


last few days he summore say wanna bring me 4 cny dinner o lunch
just both of us de...
now...i think i wont hope 4 tat

from last time till now also like tat de...
watever he said, surely at last got changes
not some good changes but bad...

i noe is not a big deal..i still can meet him next week..next next week...
but im not in a happy mood now, everything seems sad to me
at least wat he said can cheer me up a bit

but something not good said by him..will bring me down easily
mayb i expect too much? o i make evrything looks so important and big deal?
the problem is from me?

duno o...im lost now...im down...