fake day

i cried last nite...1st time cry non-stop for 1 and a half hour
because of some reason i dun wanna type it out here
i think not good to spoil someone's reputation ba
since someone really cares bout it...

anyway..of coz i will look "chan"...
eyes bengkak, looks like panda...face aledi white lips green
although i dun look good [normal days aledi dun look good de now lagi cham =_="]
but i try to put a smile on my face like how jiayi usually act in college

i nearly cried in ktm again tis morning because those scene came across my mind
of coz i tahan lo takkan cry in front of so many ppl...
then met jason in the train.he dun look good too

tis week is his mid term mah..so he is under pressure
he was mumbling to himself i didnt talk to him
coz im not in a good condition to comfort ppl too

reach college, go for sociology class
so ngam the gal beside today talks a lot to me
i force to smile or laugh to her lo, honestly i dun feel like talking
cause i really dun hv mood to talk today

anyway i still teman her to chat...smile..laugh wif her...
make jokes...i force myself to be the usual jiayi
in my mind, "im so fake!"

after tat went for lunch lu, then went to anthropology class
nearly fall asleep, i only slept 3 hours n summore tis subject is the best bedtime story
i tahan lo...feel guilty to sleep again in his class =p

then ate dinner n went home lu
im doing my malaysian studies assignment
tomolo has to pass up two assignments
then i left wif psy assignment, monday mid term!!!
today sociology lecturer told us tat no essay for mid term
because he dun wanna do something tat he aledi noe wat will happen - we fail his paper
so he change it to 60 objectives...hehe...

tomolo i duno where will i go before malaysian studies nite class
because of last nite's incident...i think there will b some changes...
n it all depends someone remember wat actually planned for tomolo

*very unhappy...stress...worried*